pagi yg Hujan~dingin spt saya

Ya Allah.... i am so hungry,,,,

apa yg harus aku lakukan di saat niiiii?kalau lah sy tw die x akan balik pandan, bleh jugak sy bersedia utk prepare diri sy pegi ke pasar malam semalam, tp kul bape baru die kate yg die sakit kepala...

Ya Allah,

PadaMu saja aku berserah, aku benar2 mati akal, aku x dpt nk bergerak without my car...

what should i do.....?i am too hungry....my stomach was empty since yesterday i never eat.....i though he want bring me to see his mother, i though he want back to Pandan to see me after put his mother at Gombak coz we hv to attend our friend -afeeq wedding- today.....

i was wrong, totally wrong when he never ctct me aftr he said "abg sakit kepala la syg mybe kene hujan"...

i am too frust at that time, as a lady i want his to apologize..

but the word is never came out from his mouth even thru sms..... i was frusted last nite...

to avoid my hungry i just eat biscuit....like i said before...i hv nothing at home (food)...

so ble dah malam mmg akan malas nk kuar, ladies hv to careful.....sy mmg x akan kuar sorang2 mlm...takot wei!  pagi ni after solat subuh tetibe air mate aku melilih x henti.....aku dapat rasekan perut kosong n sakit ble bagi salam td, x semena2 aku nangis...the tears pn mmg jatuh menitik2....

aku berdoa pada Allah moga Allah berikan aku kesabaran, titipkan aku keikhlasan,,,sbb aku tw aku sedang belajar utk tidak mengeluh maka aku ada macam2 dugaan....

solat subuh dalam keadaan lapar n sejuk hujan yg lebat diluar....

aku hanya mohon pada Allah agar aku punya ruang utk cinta....

Moga aku ikhlas, Moga aku berbaik sangka, Moga aku sentiasa menjaga pertuturanku....

daku mohon padaMu ya Allah...berikan aku kesabaran dlm menempuhi segala rintangan....

Aku pegang perut aku, xkan aku nk g breakfast sorang2? xkan aku nk jalan kaki?

hujan kat luar.....aku dah macam org puase...puase 24jam....

ayuni::sabar okey sabar....... I cant stop crying when i was thinking of him....why he do this to me??never think about me, never knows my feeling, never ask my situation, never apologize, never explain the real situation that he was handle, never....never n never..

did u know i am hungry coz im waiting to eat with u?

did u know i am hungry coz i cant come out from my house without u?

coz i know u always think about me before....but whats going on with u yesterday...